Showing posts with label clinic. Show all posts
Showing posts with label clinic. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The Wonder of Birds*


Not sure of a better way to celebrate mum in spirit, than by getting up as the reclined silver cup of a moon is just slipping out of the trees to climb the brightening sky, to give thanks to God for beauty and domestics, and do something personal and creative before my family wakes up.

The first bird this morning was Finn, who crowed, “Errh. Errrrh!” for his 4:45 warm milk snack. Then, as I lay in bed debating sleep over personal time at the break of day (my body said sleep, my mind said “mornings this beautiful with no sandpaper eyelids are a gift. Don’t refuse.”)… the next bird to wake up was the muezzin a couple areas over. The mosque is just the right distance away: if I listen in the morning, I can hear call to prayer; if I’m sleeping, it doesn’t wake me up.

And then roosters--stewbird or make-new-bird birds.

And then songbirds. I never ever get tired of them. Chirps, twitters, calls, whistles, chatters, slide-whistle sloops, trills, pops and croaks, purrs and hoots. The insects have quieted down now that we’re through the rainy season, but the birds, gratefully, have not.

You know, all you Northern Hemisphere types, that this half of us down here is not rejoicing over returning signs of spring and lengthening days. Night is coming noticeably earlier where we are, the sun is coming in the windows at new, oblique angles. Those trees that do are dropping faded leaves. As our guard John says, “Now is the time of year when we are rushing to the coldest months.”

It’s so fun to have a reason to wear socks in the morning and make rice milk Rooibos chai (from a powder mix I bought in South Africa—they don’t make that sort of thing here).

A List to Keep Things Organised:

1.Happy birthday, Mum. I wrote this back on Your Day a couple weeks ago when you turned SIXTY FIVE. oxox.

2.The ingredients on the (now-empty) instant rice-milk chai bottle from Cape Town: organic rice milk powder, Rooibos tea, black pepper, cardamon, ginger, cloves, curry leaves. In that order. And Laura, I add sugar fyi.

3.If you’re at all into birds, you should check out these the collections of these two photographers: Layzeboy and Dave Appleton.

4.Mental note: remember how great this was on the big screen? Joh: watch this again when you get back to the US.

5.The dazzling loveliness of even the most common yard birds is almost as wonderful as their names: firefinch, blue waxbill, whitefaced whistling duck, blue-eared starling, sacred ibis, masked weaver, black-bellied bustard, freckled nightjar, ruddy turnstone, little bee-eater, honeyguide, tinkerbird, and of course the lizard buzzard .

6.Andy’s twittering. If you look on the right side of our blog, you’ll notice his updates as he twitters throughout the day. It's his solution for trying to find a way to write about his patients and experiences as a physician here in a way that doesn't overwhelm the reader or the writer (120 characters max!). I suspect you’ll be as interested as I am to find out what he actually does in clinic for eight hours every day. Feel free to chatter back about his twitter. And if there’s something you’re wondering, ask away. I’m probably wondering the same thing.

7. If I had to give Andy's Twitter a bird name from my Zambian safari list, it might be something like dark-capped bulbul. Or African stonechat. I suppose after a few days in Zanzibar he might be a sunbird--scarlet chested or violet-backed, though not if I know Andy and his sunscreen habit. No, much more likely to remain a white-rumped swift or simply a red-necked spurfowl. It'll be several years before he's anything close to wattled starling, unless this unexpectedly becomes a tropical boubou.

Folks, it's 11:30pm my time, and as much fun as I'm having cracking myself up, as you can see if I don't stop acting like a white-faced scops owl and and put my bird list away for the night, I'll be a red-faced mousebird by morning rather than my usual laughing dove personality.

Good night(jar)!




*Ms. Melin, I have you to thank for introducing me to the band I've ripped this title from.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Punks and Liars





It’s official: I’m official.

The first hour of Teen Club is mine, the hour while kids are still arriving and settling into cliques in the waiting room. Woohoo! It’s been awhile since I was in charge of a bunch of teenage girls in our Salt Lake City ward and I forgot how much I love those “punks and liars,” as Andy calls them.

From the scrappiest, dirtiest, quietest non-English speaking boy by himself on the bench, to the smartiest smart-aleck in a hoodie with earbuds in, pretending not to hear me, I love them.

This week they drew each other’s profiles. We snagged some paper from CC’s table (“I don’t go through it very fast because I just let the kids stay on their mother’s lap. Unless they’re really sick, and then I’m like, ‘Ok, I gotta feel that.’”) and taped it up on a couple doors in a dark area of the hall. One kid held the flashlight, one held the pencil and drew, and one tried to stand still and not smile. I asked them to write things they like about themselves and their families inside the profile. I think that mostly got translated to “What do you want to be when you grow up.”

I know I overuse the word “poignant,” both in my own head and on paper here, but I’ll say it once more: those shadowed profiles of beautiful children’s faces, dancing in front of a jittering flashlight: as poignant as all get out.









(I’d love to hear your ideas for art/craft/music/dance ideas to do with these kids for an hour or so…)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Morning Suprise

Yesterday, I met a 6 week old infant who comes from a home with a universal story. At four months into the pregnancy, the father left the mother and four other children.

Now the mom has nothing, including no breast milk and no way to get formula. (A month's supply of formula is about $50. The average Malawian makes much less.)

I didn't notice, but apparently the baby also had no clothes. She was wrapped only in a chintenje, best described as a colorful utility blanket. First thing this morning, I caught our translators organizing a baby shower for the mom complete with a collection of their own children's clothes. Simply wonderful.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Another face at the clinic



(Photo is of the kids meeting TV star of Big Brother Africa at the Christmas talent show during once-monthly Teen Club.)


***FYI, this is another kind of depressing post. We'll try to be better about posting the joyful things in Malawi too.***

Walked in to clinic last week with my beautifully fat baby on my hip, feeling as conspicuous as I would with a fat diamond on my finger. His head was tucked in, miserable with a fever, so we were there for malaria smear #2 of this round of fevers. CC, one of Andy’s colleagues, was in the little phlebotomy room talking to a young woman, probably 14 or so, seated in a chair against the wall. Like most people, her head was mostly shaved, to about half an inch, but she wasn’t wearing any fancy extensions or a wig. Her face was puffy. Her eyes were wary. CC was giving her directions for making sure all her labwork was done. “You’ve met T, right?” she said to Andy, “Non-Hodgkin lymphoma?”

“Yeah, I saw you last week, right?” he says to T. “I think it’s grown since last week,” he says to CC, and to T he asks, “Is your face bigger this week than it was last week?” She nods kind of.

Suddenly I get it.

Andy’s holding Finn while he gets his finger stuck to get blood for his smear, and I step out to make some space in the cramped room. When Finn starts wailing, I go in again, ready to nurse. CC is finishing up. “We’re going to keep on with chemo,” she tells T as she hands her a couple papers to hold onto. “I just hate cancer!” she says looking at me, mock punching T’s cheek as she walks out.

The forced cheerfulness, the casualness undoes me. I walk to the corner with my back to Andy, the visiting resident, T, and pretend I’m arranging things in my bag while I regain composure. “Don’t put your bag on that counter, that’s where they put the blood,” Andy says.

I meet CC in the hall later. “You ok?” she asks. “It’s so crazy. She’s just this normal teenager, and she’s really smart. I can hold it together here pretty well, but sometimes at night I just go home and cry.” (We both are again by now.)

They’ve used a large guage prick to stick Finn, and his little finger won’t stop bleeding, so while Andy goes to look for some tape, I try to hold a cotton ball to his finger and nurse in an empty room.

“Are we going to treat him?” I ask Andy when he comes back in. Even though fever with no other cold symptoms is usually what you need to suspect malaria, Andy’s holding back. “By now he’s only had a fever for 24 hours, and both smears have been negative. And he just doesn’t seem that sick. I think we should keep watching him for a while.” How should sick should he be if he does have malaria? Andy showed me to a room on our way out and told me to peek in. A small girl is quiet on the bed, either sleeping or unconcious, and her mother is sitting beside her. “That’s malaria,” Andy says, “probably.”



***update for Finn’s fans***
Fever broke after four days, no malaria. Yay.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Fat Some Day Soon

For the past two days, I've been struggling with a sick child. His medical problems are no more complex than many others-prolonged fever, severe malnutrition, untreated HIV-but deciding how to manage it has been much harder. He is 6 months old and only 3 kg. We would usually admit him to the hospital for feeding therapy. But admitting a child to the hospital means admitting his mother as well. Hospitals are so crowded that nurses are limited in the care they can provide, and mothers are enlisted as nursing assistants for their children.

My patient has two brothers--one six and one three--and no father. He left once he learned the mother was positive. Of course, he refused to be tested and has gone on to find another wife. The mom is left cleaning up the mess as he potentially destroys another home.

And so for the past two days she has carried her baby to the clinic because we can't admit him to the hospital. Despite the struggle, moms always find a way. What is amazing is that many of these sickest children get better. As my translator told the mom, he will be fat some day soon.

Friday, October 24, 2008

If you're not subscribing to Poky's daily

you missed this a week or two ago. Hot damn my fella can write! In the paper, it ran with photos by award-winning photo journalist Smiley Pool.

(many thanks to Ian Fennell, managing editor at the Idaho State Journal for the opportunity)



The Baylor Children’s Center waiting room fills to capacity by 8 AM. Its vaulted ceiling and tasteful artwork do little to camouflage the overcrowding. So many of the children are stricken with diarrhea and vomiting that the room’s central feature is a large red plastic bucket continually refilled with oral rehydration solution. In fact it is not so much a waiting room as a bus terminal that happens to be the entry point to Malawi’s premier center of pediatric HIV care. First time visitors invariably stagger when they realize that almost every person on the benches is infected with HIV. And those who are not infected are the aunts and uncles, grandmothers and grandfathers now caring for a generation of orphaned children.

In a country where almost 15% of the population is positive and the average life expectancy has dropped to below 35 years, HIV has bullied Malawi into submission. Now a decade deep into the crisis, the nation is starting to fight back.

The two newest and nicest buildings in Malawi’s capital city, Lilongwe, are both dedicated to HIV. The National AIDS Commission occupies a brightly mirrored glass structure surrounded by manicured lawns. The other, the Baylor Children’s Center, sits kitty corner to Kamuzu Central Hospital, Lilongwe’s main referral center. The two’s juxtaposition illustrates where Malawi has been and where it could be going.

You could claim Kamuzu, a place where you are reminded that smell is the most powerful of senses and also the hardest to forget, sits at the front lines of Malawi’s HIV crisis. Fully 70% of the adult patients and almost one-third of all infants have HIV. But for too many patients Kamuzu is actually the end.

Two years old, Baylor retains the freshness of energy and big money. Exam rooms are indistinguishable from any pediatrician’s office in developed countries. The young, imported physicians Baylor employs decorate them with toys from their last trip home.

Shira is typical of many of Baylor’s patients. Until this year, she had never been sick, but by the time she arrived, she had been seen seven different times at the local health center for fever. Her decline was now accelerating despite a range of treatments.

Shira’s mother knew her own status, positive, and also her father’s who had died the year before. But denial is a basic instinct that is only strengthened in the face of repeated tragedy. Enabled by health care workers who had pushed--but not too hard--for the child to be tested, Shira’s mother had ignored the obvious. HIV comes to a boil slowly over years. Its gradual consequences are often missed or disregarded until it overwhelms the body’s immune system.

Like most parents, Shira’s mother stoically received the test result she already knew. Her eyes quickly darted to the ground. Complete silence followed. Outsiders explain this as cultural. I wonder if it is a protective response: quick acceptance of what must seem an inevitable part of life.

Shira will wait several more weeks to start her HIV treatment. Before her mother is allowed to give the medicines to her daughter, she will be required to attend classes, meet with counselors and physicians multiple times, and demonstrate an understanding of the treatment her daughter will take for the rest of her life.

At first, I thought it cruel to make patients like Shira wait for life sustaining medicines. The medicines, known as highly active antiretroviral therapy or HAART, will transform her HIV into a chronic but manageable illness. It is an understatement to claim HAART is life altering.

But taking HAART is also complex; even more complex are the politics surrounding it. So much so, Malawi has only been offering HAART to children for three years. Three years ago, Shira would have died within months.

*****

When I started medical school in 1998, America was crippled by the AIDS epidemic. Parents were still boycotting schools if one of its students were infected with the virus. Medical professors filled their lectures with HIV, and AIDS patients packed the hospitals of major cities. We learned more about AIDS than any other disease.

Today medical students learn about HIV from a decidedly different perspective, and absent the urgency of crisis. Ignoring that we have yet to develop a vaccine which prevents transmission of HIV, treatment of the virus stands as a triumph of modern medicine. HAART can make HIV undetectable in the body, and patients can lead essentially normal lives. Infected American mothers have less than a 2% chance of transmitting the virus to their babies. This is the HIV of America. Sub-Saharan Africa tells a different story.

Drug companies and policy makers resisted sending HAART to countries like Malawi during the late 1990’s and early into this decade. Various excuses were offered, but most revolved around the thought that African patients could not be trusted to reliably take their medicines. Since even a few missed doses a month makes the virus resistant to medicines and much harder, if not impossible, to treat, executives convinced themselves that withholding treatment from a continent was paternalistic benevolence. In retrospect, most everyone recognizes such rationalizations as greed cloaked in the patronizing remnants of colonialism.

I recently met an orphaned 14-year-old who had been on HAART through the Baylor Children’s Center for two years. Now living with her uncle, Limbandi had just finished Malawi’s equivalent of junior high and was waiting on her final exam scores, which would determine the high school she attended. Industrious and resourceful in ways only survivors are, her future plans included studying to be an engineer at a foreign university.

Like most adolescents who were infected at birth, Limbandi wears her HIV status conspicuously. She is stunted, maybe the size of an American ten year old, and her face is covered with flat warts. Scars from a prolonged case of shingles cross the right side of her face and extend into her eye. But these are past problems. Instead of focusing on her illness, Limbandi is now able to concentrate on the universal theme of adolescence—fashion. She came to her appointment wearing a perfectly fitted leather jacket and brownish wig, both of which are currently the rage in Lilongwe.

What so many thought would be too complex for the average African patient to understand, Limbandi finds absolutely simple. She knows that by taking a single pill twice a day and never missing a dose she is no longer sick.

*****

Yet HIV treatment in Malawi is complex. Not because the patients are too uneducated or simple to understand, but because HIV is not simply another epidemic.

HIV amplifies all of the other diseases of poverty. Combating malnutrition, which in the past consisted largely of providing food, now is also a fight to rebuild the body’s immune system. Tuberculosis rates skyrocket as HIV spreads. At a minimum, one-third of those with HIV also have TB in sub-Saharan Africa, and recent reports put that number much higher.

Hospitals, already overcrowded, are now flooded with patients. At one regional hospital, a single pediatrician oversees the care of 200 patients per day. She describes stumbling over children who sleep on the floor during malaria season when the children’s ward census often doubles. HIV is not the only culprit but it is clearly the major contributing factor.

HIV also accelerates poverty among the already impoverished by disproportionately attacking young adults. In fact, 1 in 4 working adults in Malawi are infected with HIV. As the workforce dwindles so does Malawi’s tax base. In a country that already struggles to feed itself annually, HIV treatment must compete with every other crisis for attention and resources.

The issues surrounding breastfeeding in positive mothers illuminates both the effect poverty has on HIV and the effect HIV has on poverty. HIV is transmitted through breast milk, and breastfeeding essentially doubles the risk of an infant acquiring HIV. Because of this, in developed countries, positive mothers are counseled not to breastfeed. However, in developing countries, formula fed babies are actually more likely to die. Sadly, the best way to prevent transmission of HIV actually increases an infant’s chances of dying from other diseases.

Breastfeeding is but one of the many compromises made in combating HIV under the stresses of poverty. If only treating HIV in Malawi were as simple for the nation as it is for its individual citizens. Limbandi takes one pill twice a day and her life is now transformed. Every morning, the waiting room fills with similar patients seeking such hope. They know that treatment is available and wonder why it has yet to reach them. If we don’t offer it to them now, we will lose an entire generation waiting for an answer.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Breastmilk to peanut butter


My last patient of the day was weaned from breastmilk to Sobo at six months. Sobo is Malawi's Sunny Delight on steroids. So packed with sugar and artifical flavoring, it's only palatable diluted 1 to 5. Except in cases of severe hypoglycemia, Sobo is absent any nutritional value. But the children love it, just look at their teeth.

When Blessings tested negative for the virus one month ago, his mother faced the devil's bargain: Wean too early and children die of malnutrition and diarrhea. Wean too late and the baby is more likely to become infected with the virus.

His twin sister lost that bet just last week when she died from diarrhea.

His full 7 pounds was hyperalert for any food with eyes wide and darting. And then we gave him some.

Malawi provides vitamin fortified peanut butter to the most malnourished. Everyone wants chiponde because it tastes just like Reese Peanut Butter Cups. Though the aftertaste has the grit of a Jamba Juice with the vitamins. Blessings ate his chiponde like a rock star.

He'll go home today with 4 jars of peanut butter and hopefully make it back next week.